Badly hurt.

HAHAHAHAHA.
This is NOT what I look like, but its how I feel like - pissed off.

See the title ? Yeah, I'm not in the mood to post about something happy. The cause of this is because of someone who once meant the world to me. You ruined my day you know that? In fact, you've ruined my future and my life. You broke my heart into millions of pieces, and you forgot about me and you found her. Bitch. SO SO WHAT? You trying to make me jealous is it? Jealousy...such a horrible feeling, yet it reveals how much you care. I'm heartbroken by your "new life". Seriously, I miss the old you. The old you was when we had those perfect conversations and moments. Laughing, calling each other's name, poking, talking crap, waving to each other and teasing each other. Now it's all gone. I feel lost :/ I really miss chatting with you. Seeing you makes me smile like an idiot. I can't believe I've fallen for such and idiot like you...get a life, I'll reject you for the rest of the days in my life, even if you apologize back to me. To tell you the truth, my life changed ever since I met you. I remember our first conversation. I was happy like crazy. :') And now it all ended. Don't you feel miserable? Don't you feel sorry for me? You once meant EVERYTHING to me...but that was last time. Now, you're nothing. I don't even know you. I regret meeting you. I regret falling in love with you. I missed you like crazy every second, and you NEVER EVER thought of me, not even a single bit. Now that you've found her, it seems like you're more happier than ever. Did you know how much I loved you? No, you didn't. And you appreciated my love, never. Fool, coward, idiot. Did you know that everytime I see you, I smile like an idiot? You were the most special person ever since I've fallen for you. You were in every dream I had. Now? Not anymore. Did you know how crazy I was over you? I was crazy to the maximum limit. I can be tough, I can be strong. But with you its not like that at all. And, I remember all those crazy things you sad. You left them running through my head, you're always there, you're everywhere. All those crazy things we did. Didn't think about it, just went with it. My heart knew there was something special about you. But you have NO IDEA at all how much pain you have caused me. I suffered so much. And yet you never cared for me, not a single bit. Some boys, they don't even want their girl to get cuts, some boys, they would rather have their rib cage broken. But I know you wouldn't sacrifice anything for me. Nothing, at all. Can't you see? You give me that heartbeat that beats only for you. I was hoping for your heart, but you never let me. You only wanted to be friends with me, but I was more serious. I wanted to be MORE than friends. No way...you wouldn't let me. You knew that from the very beginning, but you just wouldn't let me. You let HER, not ME. I feel left out now. I feel like killing myself. My life would suck without you. Let me check my diary, yeah I didn't scheduled a time to care about you - that was you last time. Now it's me. Are you happy with your new life, the one without me? I don't think so.

Why'd you dump me for that girl? Seriously, I have more talents than her, I'm not trying to show off but it's the truth. Let's face it, I'm better than her. I offered my time just to chat with you, those nights and those days. Yet, you didn't appreciate it. Who are you? And what do you want from me? Every time I think of you I feel like crying because I know I will never be able to call you mine. You don't know how much it hurts. Fool. The butterflies that once existed in my stomach, turned into killer bees that are about to get you. Isn't it ironic how the person who tends to make you the happiest, is also the person who can make you the most miserable? My eyes hurts from crying and my heart hurts from trying. I know you're reading this, and you know who you are, I don't wanna mention it. I've said enough. Please appreciate it :'( I'll be the most happiest girl if you did. Don't you want me to be happy? Even if I died, you wouldn't go to my funeral, neither would you be sad. You would forget about me. Thats all.